Dear Diary,
I hurt her feelings and make her mad again 2day.I just cant figure out why I so easy jealous and to overprotective to my dear n only best friend after I saw her post of photos up my heart just drop and I just "snap" again haiz. Mayb because all my bad experience from my past since childhood till now I still can't trust any1 cause worry be hurt again. She say she love me alot last time so need trust her she can handle herself. She told me it was my bad habit n I can't change already especially when I panic meet her frens all of sudden and left her.. =( Since tat day she wont talk to me anymore, I admit I'm not a perfect man. I shall try figure it all out myself and need cure myself up b4 its too late for her n leave me for others. I really do love her , and miss her alot for over 1 month been trying to ask her out just for the 1 weekends or called her but always 'busy" or "noting to say" as her reply. Sumtimes c she go out with frens this month I was jealous again due to her 'busy' reply and don't dare to ask her out already. B4 Halloween day I decided to ask her again just for 3 hours only to take her out but she rejected again and I ask her reason she just reply "can't lo". But the next day she went out with ex-colleges that makes me heart drop alot...then I "blown away" again.
Lesson learned:-
I must learn myself control n believing in people n calm my heart n mind. For now I won't disturb her anymore with my rubbish sms's cause she having exam soon. Love 'U' alots n I try love myself.
PS:- "I'm so sorry I can't control my feelings for U, I shall try hard to trust ppl again such as trusting U" "I will try to cure myself up" "I wont give up on U"
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